Our last day in South Africa was awful. Not
that we had a bad day, just awful in the fact that it was time to say goodbye.
We all acted like it was just another day. Everything was fine. But underneath
this false sense of calm, there was a storm brewing. The time to leave ticked
closer, and we went on with our day, trying to ignore the fact that in a few
hours Harrison and I would be on a plane home. I say home, but after travelling
for so long I wonder; where is home truly? There were so many places we visited
that after a while, kind of felt like home. After a long day we would say ‘it’s
time to go home’ without even thinking of it, referring to whatever hostel we
were staying in. And after 3 months, South Africa felt like home. I don’t want
to be corny and say ‘home if wherever you heart is’ but I’ve learnt that in a
way it’s true. You can make anywhere home if you want to. Your body is your
home, and thankfully that means home is mobile. Sure, there were places that we
went where it felt the complete opposite to home, and I couldn’t ever think of
calling them home; but then again to many people those places are home. Anyway enough
with the rambling. The time did finally
come for us to leave, no matter how hard we willed it not to. Harrison and I
said goodbye to my Aunt and Uncle and cousin Ian at home, and then left to
drive to the airport with my cousin Lyndsay, my nana and her friend. We made
small talk and tried to forget about the goodbye looming in the near
future. But we did arrive at the
airport, and once we were there it was a rush of checking our bags in and
having to say goodbye. There were tears, and it was traumatic. The hardest
thing about leaving my family in South Africa is that I never know when I am
going to see them again. It could be this year, or in 5 years. That was always
the hardest part for me. And being with
people for 3 full months, seeing them every single day and then having to say
goodbye for who knows how long is heartbreaking. It’s like this rock of sadness
and fear in your chest that threatens to engulf you and drag you down. It’s
incredibly difficult.
To make the whole situation worse, once we
had said our goodbyes and walked through the checking in area, we were faced
with the longest passport control queue I think I have ever seen. We waited for
almost 40 minutes, when I wanted nothing more just to sit down and be in peace.
Luckily the flight wasn’t too bad. Although I did have an old lady sitting next
to me who just did not want to stop chatting. I learnt a lot about her life on
that 11-hour flight. We made it through customs back in Sydney, and walked
through, back to the real world. And then our families were there, hugging us
and crying. It still didn’t feel real yet. We were really back. Almost 9 whole
months had passed. How could it have
possibly gone so quickly? Time is not your friend. You think you have so much of it, when in
reality you have so little. And it goes so fast. You really have to grab it and
make the most of what you are given.
We have been back for over a month now, and
our experiences overseas seem like a dream. Did that all really happen? If it
did how did we fall so easily back into the exact same life as before? As if we
haven’t both been changed so immensely? I know I am not the same person that
left Australia almost 10 months ago, but yet here I am, already back into the
same routine. It is a really strange feeling. Of course there are photographs, and memories
that prove it did really happen, but it truly feels like we never left. It has
me itching to get out there and see even more of the world. If only travel wasn’t
so expensive.
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